Yay for Ballet

Went and saw the International Gala today. already sent the company a letter telling them that it was an awesome show, it really was. Better than last year even. I've now booked tickets for 'The Little Mermaid' which I'm concerned may look a little awkward but should be enjoyable none-the-less.

My chest is burning tonight, when I beathe and when I swallow. I think it's indigestion.

I've gotten the nod from our director for my choreography. She said that I need to develop it a bit more, and that I need to change the names of each scene so that it looks better on the program. At the moment I just have '1st Movement' etc. For one of the scenes I called it 'Movement of Loss' which the director lady liked very much. She said that it was very powerful and would be better if I kept that trend. So now I'm going to have to go to the library and get a dictionary or thesaurus and find titles that suit each scene. What she did like about it, was that it was a story, and though it is sad, it's not a hopeless story. That's the way I want it to be recieved if possible.

So, this time next year, I will probably be pulling my hair out because I'm so worried about how the public will recieve my bit as a warmer for the companies piece. I still can't believe that they're letting me do this. But they are and I will try my best! It's funny, most people I speak to can't believe that I've created something like this, even when I show them the notes. I don't think it's that big a deal to write something like that, the big deal for me is that someone is actually willing to supply the dancers to put it on. *is over-whelmed*

It was interesting when I was telling her exactly what inspired the full story of this dance, it really is about my step-mother's situation in a way. Dad will more likely die before her, I don't want to think about losing either one of them, but that's the truth statistically. When I told J that, she automatically assumed that my birth parents were divorced. When I corrected her she said sorry, which is what everyone says, but she wasn't looking at me and when she said "That's so sad..." she looked like she was in another place in her mind. I wonder what she was thinking? It's possible that I've also given her some stimulus for another piece. I always try and tell things how I see it, and I was describing the ending message, elaborating on it, when she shushed me and stared in front of her in concentration (I love J, inspiration comes to her so hard and fast sometimes. :)). Later, when I was getting ready to leave, J was telling the others that it was time to concentrate on their own personal works. I wasn't really paying attention, but when I looked up everyone was looking at me and J was finishing her sentence that was "..said something to me that was so true, and I wanted to work with that.". I wonder what she's up to.

Someone asked me today what part I'm playing in my choreo, and I honestly haven't really made a place for myself. I lack the technical ability for the lead, the best friend and most of the other parts. I think I might hang backstage in the dressing room until it's time for curtain call. As the choreographer, will I have to take a bow? Most of the time they do I think, if they can.